Sunday, July 20, 2008


I always feel really confident for a few days after my ultrasounds, knowing things are going great and really believing the baby will be okay. But a few days before the next appointment, I start to feel so anxious and afraid! I wonder if this is how everybody feels, or if it is unique to those of us who have already experienced pregnancy loss? I am praying for God to remove my doubt and allow me to enjoy being pregnant.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008


Yesterday was amazing. I got to hear the baby's heartbeat! I couldn't believe it--it was incredible. I had a very long weekend with a little scare when I started spotting. I just panicked, thinking the baby was slipping away. I called my doctor on Saturday in my panic and he calmed me down sufficiently and moved my appointment up to Monday. I can't even describe the relief that just surged through me when I saw the baby with a beating heart on the screen of the ultrasound machine! I keep looking at the picture in absolute awe. I can't wait to see how Baby Brokaw grows week by week. I just thank God over and over.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Yep, There's a baby in there.

Today I had my first ultrasound--there wasn't a lot to see because it's so early in the pregnancy, but the doctor said, "Yep. There's a baby in there. And it looks like there's only one." My hormones have gone up "beautifully"(to use his word) and my blood work all came back good. I am feeling so much more confident today. I will have another ultrasound in a week and should be able to see more at that time. I am praying for the baby's heart to have a strong and early beat (so I can see it) and for the baby to have a heart to know the Lord from an early age. And I'm just so amazed at the work of His hands and so thankful that I get the chance to catch such early glimpses of my baby in the womb.